New Realizations

Recently, I have been working on how to say what I want to be said, not just saying the thoughts that cross my mind. In the process of doing so I have learned something about myself that I never realized before; I give the appearance of being a very apathetic person. Specifically in the way I say things, and in the way I speak to people. When I say something, I find that it's usually right, but said in the wrong way, as a friend of mine helped me to see. It's not just that you're right, it's that you deliver what you say in an impeccable manner so that none can dispute it.

Also, I have noticed that I often forget about other people's problems. Its not that I don't care about them, it's just that I forget to care. EG - I was eating with said friend at lunch on Friday and a mutual friend came by and spoke. I knew it was his birthday, but said nothing about it since it wasn't germane to the topic at hand. I didn't even realize my feaux paux (which is head-up-my-butt for Foe Pah) until the friend I was eating with wished him a happy birthday as he walked away. It was then that I realized how inconsiderate I can be. This is not even the only time that I have done this recently. This is why it is now my goal to be more conscientious of the people around me.

For Lent, I gave up anger with decent success and now I must move on to bigger and greater goals or risk stagnation. So, for the Easter season, I am going to work on bearing the burdens of my brothers above those of myself. I am going to ask people how they are doing with renewed sincerity and keep their burdens in mind as much as possible. In this I hope that God shall humble me and make me more compassionate to things which I have been ignoring for so long.